My son has started little conspiracies against his father. There are certain things that he does that he’d rather his dad not know about – little indiscretions that he knows Chris wouldn’t approve of. He’ll admit his naughtiness to me (playing with a complicated Transformer without adult supervision) and ask me to help him (he broke the arms off). “Please don’t tell Daddy I disobeyed him.” I help him, but I also encourage him to be honest with his Dad, promising forgiveness and mercy by proxy.
I’m reminded of how much I led a double life in my childhood and teenage years. Certain activities or predilections I didn’t want my parents to know about… I managed to hide from them. My secretiveness may have helped ease their stress since they didn’t have a clue what was really going on, but it caused some pretty serious soul damage that I’m still dealing with to this day. I’m still not sure what their reaction would have been, and I certainly didn’t want to change my ways, but I wish I knew about the Divine Mercy of my heavenly Father a bit sooner.
“God isn’t mad at you… he’s mad about you.”
“Jesus didn’t die for the righteous; he died for sinners.”
Now that I’ve experienced His mercy and forgiveness and I’ve begun the difficult process of forgiving myself, the joy that fills my soul is laced with a depth of gratitude that knocks me off my feet and down on my knees. Acknowledging sin and seeking forgiveness is hard. Making the decision to hate your own sin is like jumping off a cliff with only hope that Jesus is waiting for you at the bottom in an ocean of mercy. Go ahead and jump – He’s waiting for you.
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Want to learn more about peer ministry or spiritual direction for teens? Contact John Schmitt, St. Anne’s Youth Ministry Coordinator, for some answers. Call the office at 715-849-3930 or email johns@stanneswausau.org.
Cheryl Mathis is a recent convert (2010) to the Catholic Church after growing up in a fundamentalist Pentecostal church. She’s married with two kids and spends much of her time homeschooling, designing the parish’s weekly bulletin and web-mastering this site. Being a teenager sucks – and she has the scars to prove it – but God’s grace and mercy is bigger than her mistakes and rebellion. You can contact her by email at cherylm@stanneswausau.org.





Want to learn more about peer ministry or spiritual direction for teens? Contact John Schmitt, St. Anne’s Youth Ministry Coordinator, for some answers. Call the office at 715-849-3930 or email 
